My Window

I’ve let my window open
So you could crawl inside
But I’ve been waiting too long
I’m cold
And you know why
Too much I’ve tried to trust
Too little I have gained
If it’s not too much to ask
Could you please explain?
The smile that I have harbored
The “yes dears” and “you’re right”
Have derailed my own reflection
And pushed me from the light
It seems that The Quiet One
This role I’ve tried to play
Is something I won’t do
I can’t live my life that way
I’m stronger than you think
Much stronger than I’ve shown
You never even noticed
The seeds that have been sewn
But spring is finally here now
And growth is in full bloom
The flowers I am growing
Some thanks is owed to you
My window is still open
But no longer for you
The air still brings chills
But it’s something I’m used to

Waiting for a response...

How many steps have been taken?
How many bricks have been laid?
How many promises broken?
How many beds left unmade?
Now have I gone too far?
Have I crossed a line?
I don't know who you are
I can't see what's inside your mind
I'm sorry for my blunt honesty
Games aren't my forte
Please don't cower and run away from me
There is so much for you to say
I can't help thinking of the possibilities
Of all of the things that could be
But my doubts sabotage my securities
And I'm sure you want no part of me
I don't expect a lifetime of bliss
But I don't know what more I can do with this
With what little I've been given
I've grown tired of empty words and suggestions
If you need me
I'll be the one with all of the questions

The Gift

Sweet young boy
Age of 16
Trying to fit in this crazy scene
Bottles it up and keeps it inside
Covers the scars from all the lies
Daddy’s good girl
She’ll fake a smile
Better than you’ve seen in some time
The music she plays
Will help her escape
All of the noise drowns out the hate

There’s nothing to fear
It gets better with time
Just breathe and dry your eyes
You’ve got so much to lose
And nothing to show
You’ll find peace and I should know

He is the star of the football team
She is the homecoming queen
The artistic one
The chameleon
They just want to be someone
What the others can’t see
The cries and the pleas
Will it be too late to find release?

There’s nothing to fear
It gets better with time
Just breathe and dry your eyes
You’ve got so much to lose
And nothing to show
You’ll find peace and I should know

Why can’t you hear them
Screaming inside?
You can’t make it better after they die
Sort them out
Go to the source
I can’t bare to hear this anymore
When will it end?
How can we pretend?
How far does it have to go?

Another name
Is added to the list
The whole world is in shock of it
Another young boy
Another young girl
Couldn’t take this crazy world
Who is too blame?
The kids in the yard?
Or the parents?
Where does it start?
How does it end?
Can we comprehend
The weight of everything?

There’s nothing to fear
It gets better in time
Just breathe and dry your eyes
You’ve got so much to lose
And nothing to show
You’ll find peace and I should know
So stand tall
Life is a gift
Show what you can give
Reach for the stars
Conquer them all
You may fly and you may fall
But it’s life
This is life
And it’s your life after all