Humiliation

Why does it still get the best of me?
Why does it still sting so much?
I would never let you see how each word you sent
Shot through me and left me for dead
I’d never let you know how much I truly cared
Since you knew it all too well, anyway
Every other day I am over you
Every other day I am moving on
My stomach, no longer churning
My voice, not a child’s
My feet, firm where they stand

Confusion still clouds my mind
Dumbfounded and raw
Where was the change?
The turning of tables?
Why was I so blind?

Was it something I said that turned you against me?
I thought we were bigger than that
Why did you suddenly start to hate me?
Why did you do that to my head?

If I were to see you after these few months
I can honestly say, I don’t know what I would do
Would I be paralyzed simply by your presence?
Would I attack with full rage?

I’m humiliated at how this affects me at times.
I’m frustrated that you got the final word
How dare you come to such conclusions
It’s obvious you don’t know shit
How can you say what kind of person I am
When you wouldn’t let me show you my potential?

I hope things are well for you
I hope there are nights when insomnia drives you insane
I hope you have found happiness
I hope your words have caused you pain
I hope you have much luck
I hope you soon meet Karma

My Revelry

Let me out
I can't breathe
Listen close
I won't speak any softer
What's in it for me?
This pursuit has me shaking down to the core

My revelry
To your retreat
Avoiding what's obvious
My ambivalence
Your persistence of physical happiness
My longing for peace
Your content with unstable qualities

What will it take to be free?
How would you respond if someone called you out on
Your selfishness?
Your narrow mindedness
I won't let it be me
Let it be someone that you truly adore

Let me ask one more time
How would you feel if left behind?
I'm on my way out
These walls are caving in

One plane trip or car ride and I start again

You cannot come along
You cannot assume that you are welcome
I'll do it on my own
Fear-ridden and determined
Full armor on

I won't deny that you've helped
You've made it so much easiser to turn my back
I might write you some day
I might come back to visit but don't hold your-
Just hold your breath and wait

How much louder
Do I have to scream?
Do I make you nervous?
Will I cause a scene?

Mr. Curiosity

Hey there Mr. Curiosity
I heard you killed a cat
But the cat was me
I don't mean to get too close
I always try to be a friendly ghost
I couldn't help myself
You should have seen the way you looked
Those eyes and that smile
I tell you, you were something else
I thought I was fine, but I knew I fell
For months I've been on this road
Walking alone with no where to go
There were many passerby's
Filthy hitchhikers just looking for a ride
I didn't give many my time
But I thought I'd give it a try
Now under this cold night sky
I'm all twisted in knots and I think I know why
I promise to take things slow
But this guy's excited and trying not to show
You know how to make me smile
Truth is, I really dig your style
I wanna pull you near
I wanna kiss your lips
I wanna just be here
Forgive me for being so bold
But it's been some time
The night's long and cold
With the help of my beer
This poem isn't filtered and it's not too clear
But I wrote it all anyway
Big surprise, I have a lot to say
A lot for you to read
Mr. Curiosity

Diamond Ring

How many lashes do you give yourself?
How many trophies are on your shelf?
If I've got it all and you've got none
Then how are you having so much fun?
You say I think too highly of myself
But it's you
You worship you, yourself
You flaunt your sorrows like a diamond ring
Pick up the phone and start listening
Fill up your glass ten more times
Think of some more depressing rhymes
Take a sad picture
Post online
Start a discussion about your poor poor life
Maybe that helps you sleep at night
Don't let me stop you, it's your own right
You flaunt your sorrows like a diamond ring
Shut the hell up and try listening.